Jamy Panagsagan Debut Outing

A weekend in November. 2 days and one night with these three girls is an escape of stress. A weekend full of laughter and relaxation. The bond of the Panagsagan family and our friend circle is now enhanced. It was seriously fun to be with them for two straight days but everything has to end. I will share to you our experiences by posting these pictures. :D

We arrived at Club Balai, Talisay, Batangas at 10:45am. But we were told to get busy first because our rooms' will be available at 2pm so, we played billiards.
Unfortunately, I'm the only one from us four who can really really play. But to that extent, me and my partner, Jamy, still lost twice from Mitzi and Nicole.

Before we ate ;) Yeah, feeling so thin before eating heaving lunch.

After we played billiards, we ate immediately. At that moment I never realized that we just ate breakfast and a lot of snacks. We were all full but we continued eating with full buffet. Oh yeah. 

Window shopping for a few minutes. 

Nearly going swimming but we were all tired so we just checked in first.

And we ended up on bed, our eyes are so heavy so we managed to sleep for half an hour. Well, actually, it was just me and Nicole Trinidad.

While me and Nicole are sleeping, Mitzi and Jamy are readingr Ramon Bautista's Book. "Bakit 'Di ka Crush ng Crush mo?" Both of them are really hyper, it's as if they weren't tired from our very long road trip. They even took pictures with the book.

Then, I woke up, and ate a lot of cookies.So, I was vain with Jamy. The birthday girl. Take note: She's a year older than me but I look older. Oh so sad. 

Mitzi's still fixing herself. And we bothered her. Yes, another picture with the fantastic mirror. 

Maybe you're wondering where's Nicole, well she just woke up there. Time to swim!!

Still waiting, we all asked if the banana boat's available but it ended up

Replenish

Just Breathe.

A Doubt Feeling

That Doubt feeling that has been going around your stomach all day. You do want to be happy but something tells you to stop faking your smile and start showing what you really feel. That's the problem, I don't know what I'm feeling. I don't know if I'm depressed, if I'm just sad, if I'm just overthinking, if I'm just being paranoid, if I'm just tired. I am and hundred percent sure that I am not certain with what's bothering me inside. 

I think I'm starting to doubt myself already. I don't know what's going on my mind lately. I'm aware that my mind is totally used up, but I don't know why. Sometimes, my eyes just tear up and just stop when I'm asleep. Sometimes, I try to control those drops just to keep it from everyone to see. Sometimes, I don't even know that those tears are crawling down my cheeks in such instant. 

I've been cutting off my hobbies and it just worsened everything. Maybe, if my friends aren't around, I wouldn't be standing tall again. I wouldn't even bother taking care of myself if there's no one to lean on. I'm just glad that they're there to make me happy and show me that I still have a reason to live. 

I'm doubting that I'm still me. I'm doubting that I am fully me when I'm around. This cover, it will soon fade off, but I hope it won't. I just wish something will happen to renew this cover. I don't want to fade this off and when time comes just disappears. I might not be myself if that's the case. 

My life is a living mess. Well, everyone's life, actually. It's the matter of how you would able to stand up again and redo the things you regret. Hoping for the best, but expect the least, so disappointments would not come and down you.

Back to School

It's just a week after our 3 weeks semester break and I'd been stressing myself already. The past few days weren't so easy for me. I never went home early yet. My earliest I think is 7 in the evening. Take note, my class ends at 2:30 at the latest and still I am able to arrive home at 7. 

Tuesday was the start of our classes but by Monday I was already in school. We have this photoshoot for a pageant in our program called, "Huwaran ng Sipnayan", translation Pageant of Math. Yes, I joined. I joined because my friend Kim insisted. She tried pulling me into this so she won't be alone. At the end of the day, she wasn't able to go. Luckily, there's another photoshoot scheduled the coming Saturday. At least, we both are still part of the competition. This ended before 5pm but I don't know why I feel very very exhausted. Maybe, it was from smiling and being steady. I really don't know.

Tuesday, first day of classes and I forgot why I went home so late. We have this talk and teachers started giving the book requirements that are really expensive. I was even late even though I woke up so early. Oh well. That's just how life is.

Wednesday, it's our PE day and we're not sure if there will be classes already. Even though, we're not sure, we still went on even if its late already. Me and Jess even jogged before 3 o clock since we were dismissed at 2pm. Crazy day. I still went home late. Maybe it's because of traffic?

Thursday, another crazy day. Did you know that from UST I went to MC and went back to UST again... I've officially wasted 2 hours of travel just for my friend and for some letters I have to give. Actually I didn't waste time. Most of it was energy, because when I went back to UST we still trained even if its raining. I was scared that the guard won't let us in to change so I put my uniform on top of my used training clothes. Knowing that the guard still lets anyone in... my mind was blown. I waited until 8pm for my friend AJ 'cause he was conditioning with the College of Science Dance Troupe.

Friday, I THOUGHT I was going home early, but then, we had a Math and Physics week meeting. I had to attend and it's up until 5pm. I went home straight realizing that I have fallen asleep the whole jeepney trip. I arrived in cubao at 6:10 pm, grabbed some check in Shopwise and stayed for a while in National to buy some stuff. I got home late again and my mom was there very angry. I slept and didn't eat.She woke me up at 12:30 in the morning, we ate all together. Weird, right? 

Sometimes it's better to let things fade before confronting it. It eases things than making it a problem.

My week may be as productive as I am right now, but I think it's too much for me already. My body is already exhausted and my family relations are being bothered once again. I hope I can manage things better this week since it's Math and Physics week this week. 

By the way, just a sharing. I'll lead a choir for our opening mass. I hope all practice and the mass itself would be successful :D I really hope so.

Greg Slaughter

For this post, I will solely base my story about the first game of NLEX Road Warriors against eRAse through these pictures. Such a special and fun day for me. 

We were able to meet Greg Slaughter since my uncle, Gino Manuel, is part of the NLEX Road Warriors team being their Scouting Coach. He wasn't going to play at this game that's why we were able to take pictures with him at the dug-out. Kirk Long and Nico Salva are shooting so we can't disturb them.

I wasn't satisfied with one picture so I asked if I can take another one, with just me and Greg :"> So dream come true. :"> A photo of him. He's so tall but I didn't mind. By the way, his height measures 7 feet flat. His head almost reaches the ceiling. So unbelievable. And I thought I was tall already.

Me and my cousin, Kristina Morillo, just wanted to take some pictures before the game starts. OR we were just really bored and did this for the sake of having pictures. HAHA

My cousin, Kristina Morillo.

NLEX Road Warriors just warming up.

The game started and of course we were all fed up with the game. While watching we are also waiting for my other cousin Ahna Morillo.

By the way, this is Kirk Long's crowd. There were foreigners with a few Filipino kids with them. I don't know what their foundation or group is. But, they were all supporting Kirk Long being in the NLEX team. 

Now, this is Ahna Morillo. She's my cousin and we have the same age and the same year level but I study at UST and she studies at UE. Two opposing teams. Great HAHA

Me, Ahna & Tina respectively.

My brother Mark Operario, and Bullet Manuel my cousin.

Ahna & Tina

Kirk Long's free throw

The game's about to be done. And look at the score... Also, wait for the next pictures, those are just scores from the 3rd quarter and the final score at the 4th quarter.

Obviously. the NLEX Road Warriors won!! :D

 NLEX vs eRAse game was done, and now it's Cagayan vs Boracay blah. I forgot what were they called. I just remembered the first names of their teams which are famous destinations of the Philippines.

Ahna moved away from me 'cause even if I don't know anyone from both teams, I feel so tensed while watching and I end up slapping her from time to time. HAHA. I just love watching basketball games, even if I don't know any team as long as there's a game I could watch.

They are seriously bored :)) I took a photo. Bullet, Mark & Tina respectively.

 We were there for the second game because our uncle, Bullet's dad, has to scout because they will play against Boracay soon. I hope I can watch even if there's classes already.

Ahna & Bullet with this big head.

You might be wondering who is this. Well, he's just the player of eRAse that got sent out because of a fragrant foul. His intentions are seen to be very brutal and so he has to stay out of the court until the game ends. I took a picture 'cause it's really funny how they just left his face along the seats. HAHA.

After a long day and wait, we just jad fun outside and took some photos. Since I liked what I'm wearing I asked my cousins to take photos of me semi-full-body.

That's my tito I love him so much. Coach Gino Manuel <3

Me, my brother, my cousins and my uncle. We are so cute. Sorry Tina, you were taking the shot. Thank you.

Two photos of me wearing a black sheer top with white collar and white shorts with blue and red stripes. Both sheer top and shorts are bought from Folded & Hung Gateway, bag from Claire's, Technomarine Watch (my forever favorite watch), lip balm from Maybeline and gray flats from Haze Eastwood (even if it's not seen in the photos)

In this photo, we were playing ketchup. I'm pretty sure I was winning against my brother. :P

After the game, we went with Tito Gino at some Inasal food stall in Gilmore. It was like Mang Inasal. Actually it's a clone of Mang Inasal.

We all went to Cubao, some were going home already but me and my brother met up with our mom at SM Cubao. We bought Christmas lights and some items I do not know what are for. So, now, I have a new alarm clock and so is my mom and my brother. Funny right?